January 2011
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“Life is worth living even if it takes two years and 10 notebooks of suicide...”
– (via goodbyedepression)
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slowertoheal asked: <3 stay strong sweetie xxxxx
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Don’t be shy, ask me!
Anonymous asked: How long have you been in the hospital?
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Strategies to Reduce Restricting and Binge Eating
In group last week we were given several strategies to combat the urges to restrict and binge. I have uploaded the notes for you guys to take a look at since I think they are helpful. They are below! Good luck loves.
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I am waiting for this feeling to pass because that is all that I can do. I am in a state of derealization mixed with depersonalization; I cant really tell which one right now all I know is that everything does not feel real. I am just watching everything happen and I feel as though no one can see me: I am omniscient. It is wonderful if it just last a few hours but it has been going on days now....
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I was going to make a post about the importance of building your own recovery team once you are discharged from the hospital but instead I made another video about it!
you can check it out here: http://www.youtube.com/user/Jenniferbeatrice?feature=mhum
Lots of love.
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The nerve of some people; there is a mother in the lounge on the ED ward watching a show about cutting calories from food… inappropriate much?
breakfastwithoctober replied to your post:Hey, it’s me. Well my picture at least :)
you’re beautiful :)
Thank you love. I have seen your pictures, and you are stunning, absolutely stunning <3 It means a lot to me though, I have pretty bad body image distortions concerning myself.
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Hey, it’s me. Well my picture at least :)
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Readiness was a success! There are six girls in the group, one of which I already knew from previous outpatient groups which was a blessing and reduced my anxiety a lot. The morning was filled with talking about the three goals that they had set from the week before: 1 nutritional, 1 psychological and another leisure related and whether or not they were successful at their goals and why or why...
proud-of-your-body asked: You have such a great blog. I'm trying to get mine started please take a momment to check it out if you dont mind
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Tomorrow is the first day of Readiness wherein I will meet my future housemates for the Eating Disorder Program and the team of professionals that will be treating me. First I will be attending the Goals and Victory group held pre-meal where we discuss recent victories and challenges and set goals for the upcoming week. Following this group is the meal along with meal support from the team....
cat-wings replied to your post: I MADE A VLOG! This is my first time vlogging,…
You’re so lovely! And I’m jealous of your gorgeous curls. :) Have a good evening.
Thank you! Let me know if you have any suggestions for future vlogs :)
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I MADE A VLOG! This is my first time vlogging, basically I just wanted to let everyone know who I am. I am not sure if I will continue so let me know what you think!
find the video here: http://www.youtube.com/user/Jenniferbeatrice
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“to live is the rarest thing in the world. most people exist, that is all.”
– oscar wilde (via maybemaeby)
perfectionisamyth1 asked: Please don't hurt yourself, you can tackle this eating disorder. You are beautiful and wonderful, and your weight does not describe who you are. Find something you love and let that become you. Let me know if you ever need anyone to talk to. Best of luck to you.
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cat-wings replied to your post: Today I feel isolated and alone. It’s been a long…
You can do it. We’re all here for you.
Thank you! Your support means so much to me. <3 Thinking of you.
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Today I feel isolated and alone. It’s been a long time since I have felt this way; the last few weeks my mood has been generally high but not manic. My appetite is gone so I am being extra careful that I follow my meal plan and eat healthily. Next week I start Readiness: meal support once a weak at the Hospital wherein I get to meet the girls I will be housing with and the team that will support...
“Those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not...”
– Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
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“I’m not sure why I’ve decided to do this. I’m not any stronger than I was, and...”
– Yuki, Fruits Basket. (via fisheyelens)
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I am not perfect because that is virtually impossible. My recovery has been smooth sailing for the last while and it was only a matter of time before I felt a little turbulence. Yesterday I slipped a little, not in terms of restricting or food wise but another vice which happened to latch on to me and thrive for the moment. It sucked and I felt terrible about it.
There is this recovery oriented...
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Ask me anything: advice, inspiration, I am all yours
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My eating disorder thrived longer than it ever should because I had no positive coping skills in my life; the only thing I knew how to do when the tough got going was to starve and cut, starve and cut. From early on I knew that I was a writer but I bottled it up and refused to show it for reasons I do not know. For years I refused to write a single thing personal unless it was required for school....
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I just finished my long overdue check-up with my ED doctor and I have good news! So far I have maintained my healthy weight for the last three weeks (when I saw her last) and my vitals are beautifully normal. Horrah! Say goodbye to postural tachycardia! Furthermore I got a call this morning to start meal support at this wonderful house in the city that the hospital fully staffs with nurses,...
playmeandante replied to your post:I posted recently about being accidentally…
love you. are you changing majors?
I love you too my darling. I was always planning in majoring in psychology and figured out the Arts degree in psychology allows me to take more of the courses that I am interested in rather than the Science degree. But then I realized that since i had been out of University...
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I posted recently about being accidentally un-enrolled in University due to my Hospitalizations and the momentary stress and anxiety that it caused in my life. But here I am, almost two weeks later having been readmitted and to the faculty that I was planning to transfer into anyways: Faculty of Arts (rather than Science). Everything usually works for the best, but that doesn’t mean that you have...
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“I try to find something to love in everybody. Even if it’s a small thing....”
– Chloe
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My recovery would not have been possible without this one friend that I have in my life. No matter what he was always there for me and his first priority was for me to recover, whatever it took. He was the one person that I depended on more than anything, if he gave up on me then there would be absolutely no hope for me; he was my life raft and I was drowning, I needed him. There were times when I...
“We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone...”
– Dr. seuss (via maybemaeby)
mitsukejima asked: What was a really happy moment for you within the last week? What was a sad moment?
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Don’t be shy, ask me anything.
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“I want to force myself again and again to leave the warmth and security of...”
– Sylvia Plath
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“Kiss me and you will see how important I am.”
– Sylvia Plath
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I am not a religious person; I think religion is beautiful and inspiring however I was not brought up with any sort of belief in a higher power. At times I am sad that I never got to be a part of something greater than myself but at the same time it has left me open minded and able to explore each and every one and find pieces that I can identify with. Today I believe that Everything Happens for a...
“Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down. Just because...”
– Ralph Marston (via julie911) (via floatingclouds) (via happythings) (via poeticheartache)
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Throughout my experience with Anorexia the one thing that I am most thankful for is that I always wrote, no matter how awful, no matter how unforgiving I felt I always wrote. Now when I look back over the past three years I can picture myself in those moments through my words. I have a storyline to follow my eating disorder recovery that will be sacred to me for always. Writing has become one of...
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“I live off the hope I find.”
– Trent Dabbs (via itookadeepbreath)
adirtydancer reblogged your video: Swim, love. You can do it.
I love this song.
I love you. I love you. I love you times ∞
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“Never, never, never give up.”
– Sir Winston Churchill
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You are in this dark place and you think that you are alone, but you aren’t love, you are never alone. We are here with you; we are the one who have made it through and the ones who are still suffering. We are here for you always. Together we will win this battle, together we will make it through the darkness because there is light on the other side, that much I promise you. You can’t stand...
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“For there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so.”
– Hamlet
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Ask me anything!
or Follow my photoblog.
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